a week in my life

"How are you?" is one question I do not like to answer these days. There's just too much emotions-- I am happy I get to spend everyday with my kids because of the prolonged "summer vacation." I am also happy I get more time for my creative pursuits. On the other hand, I hate that the kids are missing out on their childhood; though I am naturally an introverted person being stuck at home with no change of scenery is already getting to me. My anxiety is now soaring high and I've spent weeks in a rut. I didn't want to draw, play games, socialize....I was basically stuck on Netflix and Animal Crossing.

Luckily, we have a spacious garage where the kids can still play around in. I can also jog here sometimes. But who wants to me negative all the time? Change is up to me and so change it is. I started to take photos again, draw little by little and do crafts with my girls. 

This week started slow, as I was still trying to get myself together. I traded HIIT workouts for gentle yoga because I've been feeling tired physically and emotionally. I wanted to take videos of our daily life but had the worst bout of headaches for days. I started feeling better last Sunday.

A bunch of my online orders came and one of them is a set of clay pots I was going to paint. My littles wanted in on it and I thought it would be a great activity for all of us. I am always thankful for Adam who documents these things. I am happy we share the same passion in taking pictures of our girls, of our life. 

So, nothing much happened last week...it was a Monday then suddenly a Sunday for me. LOL. I will do better documenting this week I hope. If you are reading this know that you are not alone. 

And so, here are some pictures Adam and I took this week.

This pandemic is getting to me and it is a tedious process to get even a little bit of positivity each day but I do it for my kids, for Adam, for my family and for myself. If you find yourself drowning, call a friend...talk to someone. It helps. 

Eleanor's First Birthday

I was supposed to blog about the next part of our cherry blossom experience in Busan but it dawned on me that I haven't even posted about Eleanor's first birthday. This made me question myself on why I started this blog. This space is where my journey as a mom began; this is where you can see Bean grow up...and I feel bad that I seem to have stopped for so many dumb reasons. Knowing me, there is zero chance that I'd not document life with our littlest....oh no!

So here I am starting again.

We celebrated Ellie's first birthday at home and decided on a "jungle" theme since she loves lions so much (at that time--now she's moved on to Minions and Coco.) Because our daughters' birthdays are close to each other I really planned and prepared in advance and I am so thankful for our nanny because she helped so much in making the decorations. I am also thankful that my sister-in-law is crafty because she was the one who made the giant paper flowers that we mounted on the wall.

Her party was set in the afternoon so the food we prepared was simple and filling so that it can last the guests until dinner. This time we invited a few close friends. I decided to de-clutter my life from material things to people. This lessens my all my stress!

People always ask me why not just have my kids' birthdays in Jollibee or McDonald's...it's just that I really enjoy doing this for them. I love making the decorations and cooking the food. When I see how happy our girls are it makes me so happy, too.

Here are a few pictures from Ellie's first birthday.

I feel so lucky to be blessed with another daughter...because Bean was a poster-child for discipline and being good....Ellie appears to be the wild one! LOL. But I would't have it any other way. She is indeed a ray of sunshine who gives us so much laughter. I am still struggling with my time with the both of them but slowly we are getting there. One day at a time.